Plot uncertainty

So with just over a week to go before NaNoWriMo begins, and I’m suddenly doubting the plot I’ve been sitting on for months. I felt really confident in it, but as we get closer and I start actually trying to piece together the world in my head I’m left wondering if there’s enough in the idea for a whole novel.

This doubt really sucks. I’m still trying to piece it together and see if there’s a story in it, but I’m also brainstorming for additional backup ideas that might be better. Knowing me though, I’ll end up going a third route and just winging it with no plot, characters, or direction. We’ll have to see.

Deepish Sighs

When I first started this blog the plan was I’d have a place where I am forced to write my thoughts literally daily. At the time, I felt I was in a position where this would be possible, and indeed it mostly was. It was in part a writing exercise, in part an outlet for myself that wasn’t specific to gaming, and just overall something to pass time. Of course, situations never stay the same for long and I have found myself having less and less time for things like video games and sitting in front of a glowing computer screen at 2am in the morning.
Overall this isn’t a bad thing and actually something I’m pleased with. There’s a lot to do in life, and I feel genuinely good about where I am right now. Sure, there is a lot that could be better, but much of that is out of my hands.
Deep Sighs is still a place I want to maintain. I will be posting cool little things as they happen, maybe some stories I write as I’m finally pushing myself to do writing exercises again. The keywords there are ‘as they happen’ though. I don’t know if I’ll post multiple times in a day, once a week, or what have you. All I can say is, I will post.

I think I’m really happy that this blog became what it has. I had slightly more depressing plans for it initially. I wanted a blog that also served as a public journal. I have my own physical journal in which to scrawl down daily happenings and thoughts, but I wanted something digital to express thoughts feelings and opinions of a different nature. The sort that while many people may not encounter them, it felt good to write them down. The idea came about because honestly I had a big write-up about a friend, and a whole bunch of others planned around thoughts about myself and the world around me. Alongside the sorts of posts that populate this website currently, I was going to have these almost as the ‘main content’ of the website. Hell it’s called Deep Sighs for a reason, that reason actually being that I sighed a lot while writing the aforementioned write-up.
Of course, that write-up didn’t get posted here because once it was finally finished, my state of mind had shifted. It almost felt silly to publish it amongst posts about Doctor Who and short comments on Blink-182. I genuinely enjoyed making those posts, and want to keep doing them. Deep and meaningful is good, but it has to feel right.

I honestly feel fantastic and have lots I want to talk about…when I have the time.

Jesus Christ, 7 days?!

It’s been a week. There are reasons, of course, but this is life.

I found my Kindle the other day, and have given up on reading Ulysses, as I just couldn’t understand anything in it. It seems my reading comprehension isn’t the best when it comes to older titles like that. So instead, I’ve moved on to reading George Orwell’s 1984. I’ve always heard books and movies described as “Orwellian”, such as V for Vendetta, but I only had the loosest understanding of the term. As I read the book, I’m falling in love with the story. It’s so cool, and watching the story of Winston unfold is just riveting.

I also tried cooking a bolognese sauce the other day, from scratch. For the most part it went well, but came out a bit bland in the end. Thanks to some assistance though, we fixed it and now it’s nice, rich and tomato-ey. It turned out I didn’t add enough tomato paste and wasn’t liberal enough with the garlic. It’s delicious and I’m happy.

Definitely slacking off here.

I don’t regret it though. My reasons for not posting are also reasons I am happy, and I enjoy being vague.


I wanted to share my new work uniform. I work at my local casino, and every few years they change the uniform (to refresh the brand? Maybe). This time around what they’ve gone with is a nice black vest with patterns on the breast and back. I like it a lot.
However, I have mixed feelings about the open collar. It’s comfortable for sure, but I have become so used to wearing a bow tie that this just feels…incomplete. It feels like I’m undressing, almost.


Holy shit, that fight scene

So today, I had the honour of being shown the amazing movie that is Kingsman: The Secret Service. I had heard of it but I had dismissed it as something I wouldn’t be interested in at all. Of course, having given it a chance I have been blown away. The movie was amazing, and of course the epitome of perfection was the fight scene which takes place in a church.

Holy shit, there is nothing better. Everything about watching Colin Firth go crazy is just…words cannot describe the joy I feel. The camera-work feels delicious, the choice of Free Bird as the soundtrack, the violence. I love it. First thing I have done tonight, is YouTube the scene and watch it another half dozen times.


Some more osu! stuff

So, with the tablet I have obviously improved in my osu! gameplay. That said, I still have a way to go. I fail at a lot of 3 star songs. However, I actually managed to *barely* beat my “white whale” of a song that I struggled with on mouse. I have linked to Amore before, but when I play it in Double Time with Hard Rock enabled, it was virtually impossible for me to complete. With a tablet, I was able to beat it however close I may have been to losing. It’s obvious that with a bit more time I will get better enough to push past these issues and play three or even four star songs, but for now I’m REALLY happy to be able to call this song “done”, at least until I’m able to take on the harder difficulties.

I lost my Kindle

So, it’s been a few days since the last post, but I had someone awesome over that was taking up all my time. I couldn’t bring myself to write anything when I had someone to hang out with the entire time. As this is my first night to myself, hello how are you?

unspecifiedIt seems, as the title indicates, my Kindle has gone missing. I don’t know if I lost it at work or if someone has taken it, but I am now without. Today, I went to a bookstore and bought my first physical novel in ages (The Tommyknockers by Stephen King).
I love physical books, but I thought the Kindle was such a godsend of convenience with way too many advantages to ignore. I strongly suspect I’ll be putting money aside to buy a new one (Which means upgrading to one of the more recent models!). I think I owned this one for nearly 4 years, which is crazy.

Oh also I impulse bought Guitar Hero Live and let me tell you, that shit is the BOOOOOOOOOOOOOMB.