Deepish Sighs

When I first started this blog the plan was I’d have a place where I am forced to write my thoughts literally daily. At the time, I felt I was in a position where this would be possible, and indeed it mostly was. It was in part a writing exercise, in part an outlet for myself that wasn’t specific to gaming, and just overall something to pass time. Of course, situations never stay the same for long and I have found myself having less and less time for things like video games and sitting in front of a glowing computer screen at 2am in the morning.
Overall this isn’t a bad thing and actually something I’m pleased with. There’s a lot to do in life, and I feel genuinely good about where I am right now. Sure, there is a lot that could be better, but much of that is out of my hands.
Deep Sighs is still a place I want to maintain. I will be posting cool little things as they happen, maybe some stories I write as I’m finally pushing myself to do writing exercises again. The keywords there are ‘as they happen’ though. I don’t know if I’ll post multiple times in a day, once a week, or what have you. All I can say is, I will post.

I think I’m really happy that this blog became what it has. I had slightly more depressing plans for it initially. I wanted a blog that also served as a public journal. I have my own physical journal in which to scrawl down daily happenings and thoughts, but I wanted something digital to express thoughts feelings and opinions of a different nature. The sort that while many people may not encounter them, it felt good to write them down. The idea came about because honestly I had a big write-up about a friend, and a whole bunch of others planned around thoughts about myself and the world around me. Alongside the sorts of posts that populate this website currently, I was going to have these almost as the ‘main content’ of the website. Hell it’s called Deep Sighs for a reason, that reason actually being that I sighed a lot while writing the aforementioned write-up.
Of course, that write-up didn’t get posted here because once it was finally finished, my state of mind had shifted. It almost felt silly to publish it amongst posts about Doctor Who and short comments on Blink-182. I genuinely enjoyed making those posts, and want to keep doing them. Deep and meaningful is good, but it has to feel right.

I honestly feel fantastic and have lots I want to talk about…when I have the time.

Definitely slacking off here.

I don’t regret it though. My reasons for not posting are also reasons I am happy, and I enjoy being vague.

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I wanted to share my new work uniform. I work at my local casino, and every few years they change the uniform (to refresh the brand? Maybe). This time around what they’ve gone with is a nice black vest with patterns on the breast and back. I like it a lot.
However, I have mixed feelings about the open collar. It’s comfortable for sure, but I have become so used to wearing a bow tie that this just feels…incomplete. It feels like I’m undressing, almost.

Blerp.

No desktop Internet!

So the adapter I’m using for WiFi on my PC appears to have shit itself, which is a tragedy. Instead I’m chilling in the lounge room watching YouTube on the TV.

Today’s crisis is my inability to decide whether or not to shave the beard, trim the beard or leave it to grow wild and unrestrained.
I just don’t know.

Daily photos. This probably won’t work out.

I don’t take many photos of myself. I take selfies maybe once every month or two.

Years ago, I used to use Dailybooth actively, taking daily selfies of myself using a webcam to track my life. I want to start doing that again, so as of today I have a new Instagram account where I’ll take at least one photo of myself a day, barring issues getting in the way. It will be interesting for me, since I’m slowly trying lose weight. Some visual representation of progress as I go would be pretty rad.

The first photo is a few days ago, but we all have to start somewhere, right?